Halloween

HALLOWEEN! So this year I decided to go as Sleeping Beauty, I8 was gonna go in my Pj's and a crown but ended up in a dress, slippers, robe. I tried taking pics of people at school but there wasn't that many cool costumes this year as there was last year. My best friend Lindsay went as My fairy god mother, and she looked WAY better then me, with such a simple costume. At lunch they school did this really cool thing, where some students dressed as zombies in white and had blood all over themselves, and they walked all differnt and funny, getting in peoples faces and if you walked down the hall you could see random traces of blood, and no matter where you were you could hear someone screaming and then see them run by. IT WAS AWESOME.

On Halloween day I went on a date with Kevin Garcia, I had a GREAT time. He picked me up at 4 and we headed off to see the movie Paranormal Activity, totally expecting to be scared to death after watching but instead it was kinda a dumb movie sorta freaky but weird, then he took me to Applebees cause i've never been there, it was delicious. Afterward it was a random spur of the moment and went to crispie creme and got me a doughnut :p lol then off to his house we went, and he pulled out the ping pong table and I learned how to play, almost beat him too! once that was over we played guitar hero which i'm okay at, since i've never played rock band he let me try that and let me tellya it was fun but i dont think i'm good at the medium level and barely the easy level, Oh and he let me play on his real drum set. it was an awesome date.

tada
my slippers

Physics class

ZOMBIES

BFF

Movie

Playing Guitar Hero

Calling

Today in Young Women I was called to be the Second Counslor of the Laurels class, with Josie as President, Erin as First Counslor, and Annie as the Secretary. I am so excited to work with these girls!!! and Hope for the best.

Coping

"When I doubt there are things in life I just can't figure out, I trust that God is in control and I hold on to the things I know."

I know God knows each and every persons future, including all the people who come and go in your life and how they will benefit yours. Though sometimes I wish I could see ahead, I learned to have faith in the Lord that he can help me make the right choices in life, but only if I obey. This past year I learned a few things from the Lord.

I recently just lost a friend, no he didnt technicly die but he has to me. My elder made promises to me one of which was he would call me before and after his surgery. After waiting I realized he wasnt going to call, he wouldnt talk to me on the computer either, but he talked to everyone else. Then I noticed him and some girl (he is coming back this month to baptize her and she is 15) making lovey dovey comments to each other, I recognized the girls name from somewhere, I asked her how she knew him, he was her missionary and promised he would be going to a colege near cedar and they would see how their relationship goes. I suspected him writing other girls but this just didnt make sense to me. I told her i was in the same situation with the same man. She freaked out and told him, he told me to not talk to her, I left him a message saying that I was sorry for ruining anything and that I wouldnt believe anything till it came from his mouth. In response he said that we needed to just be friends and help each other out and date others yet he doesnt take anything back that he said before. This made no sense cause we have already discussed this. I told him that I was his friend and always have been, then I gave him time which he asked for. Well after 2 or 3 days it was getting hard especially with seeing the comments they would make on each others profiles.

On Sunday I was confiding in kasi (a friend he set me up w/ to tlk of mish cause we were in the same situation "in love" with our mish) told her everything, seh said she had sent him a message simply saying they needed to talk, he went off on crap and she told him he needed to tell me cause I needed closure and I deserved at least that. Then I recieve a inbox from him saying that this is how it's gonna go, communication between him/me me/his friends had to stop, he asked that i not post anything on his wall and he was getting crap from all my friends. I told him i did not understand, that they are my friends too then i told him what i was going through with all of this and reminded him I am still his friend. after sending that i noticed both the girl him, and both his sisters dropped me as friends.

Later I saw that this girl was mad so I asked if she was mad at me and she said no, then we got a talking, after hearing her say things that he was saying he told me I realized he was lying. He told her that he baisicly told me to go to hell and that i broke a commandment or something. Well I told her they were lies and then she said that he was going to call me, we said our goodbyes.

The phone rang "hello?" "who is this?" "tori" "What the hell?" "What!?!??" then he goes on to say that I called her a whore, "I never said that" and he was getting crap from all my friends especially someone named jessica "I don't know no Jessica that would be talking to you!" "Don't ever talk to me again bye!" "goodbye" after telling mom, I broke down when she started playing with my hair. I feel bad cause i kept shoving my moms hand away. Any way I didnt cry as long/ or much as I expected. not to long after the phone call and talking to mom I took off the ring he gave me, took down all the pics and things I had of him and put them in the drawer, He was gone, out of my life, and had died that night. Monday I did not go to school cause I didnt know how I would take it. I did quite well actually, It was Tuesday that was hard. Well on this past thursday I got a message from his 'mom' really from him saying "tori i told you once and i'll say it again. don't talk to me my family or friends goodbye" that didnt make sense cause I didnt talk to anyone.

It has been 8 days since he called and I am coping very well in fact I am surprised how well i am coping, how quickly I forgave him, and well just baisicly surprised at my self for the way I have been handling everything. I don't regret ever meeting him or anything that transpired in that year because I know the feelings/ promptings I had were true, it is where the Lord needed me to be, I don't know if i was ment to just help the elder or if it was for my benefit. I do know that for me it helped me become spiritually stronger, my eyes were opened to knew things.

I'm forever greatful and will continue to have faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.

My best poem ever.

My Soldier

He's a man in the army,

Sent somewhere new.

Two years he will serve,

Along side of you.

No armor, a shield, or sword,

Appeared so grand.

A black suit, a tie,

With a book in hand.

I've seen courage, hope, faith, and,

Adore his strength.

Though heartache and pain,

Have gone to great length.

Great distances he goes by,

Car, bike, and feet.

Weary by night,

The sun he greets.

He's blessed others near and far,

Showing the way.

A light to the world,

Shone every day.

Months have passed, soon he'll return,

Never the same.

Now he arrives with,

Honor in his name.

This long journey he has trod,

Comes to an end.

What i'd give to see,

My dear soldier friend.

By Tori Elizabeth Hill

Ring

So Renae and I went shopping for Homecoming dresses and then decided to just look at some rings and the guy there let us try them on, he was fun to talk to and I found out her served a mission here in the Provo Utah area and he is from Pennsylvania... I think idk if i remember that correctly. Oh and we saw missionaries shopping at the mall.. that was strange. Any way, we tried a few rings on and we both ended up liking the same ring. It's $6,999 but I really like it. I loved all the sparkles. hehe. ;)

Mylee's Blessing

When we arrived we had dinner already ready for us. In the morning I met a guy named Ben who was staying with them from orem for an internship, he was pretty cool, that day we went to Mylee's blessing and there were like 15 dudes that blessed her. after ppl saying hi and taking pictures we headed out to a place called Crakers Co. or something but it was delicious!!! I had pankacks and their dessert was great too.

That night, Dad, Bailee, Maeser, Corbin, Ben, and I all drove to a paking lot place and waited for the Metro train, which we rode into Pheonix. It was my first time on a train and it was fun. as I sat I enjoyed watching Maeser, Ben, Corbin, and a guy I met Named Brian (who wants to be a surgeon) all play a game to see who could stand without loosing balance. it was a funny thing to watch. Once there we got our tickets and found our places. that was the biggest baseball field I have ever seen it was awesome. well the game was pretty cool, but didnt keep my interests for long which kinda bugged me.. well at one point of time the guy Pitcher for the Dogers threw the ball and the Batter for the Diamond Backs hit it right back to the pitcher where it hit his head and he fell down, so they had some ppl take him out, The Dogers were winning so we decided to leave right when we tied the game. haha. well after the game we went for some concrete Ice cream which is AMAZING.

On sunday, I went to church with Aileen and her family, I really enjoyed it at their church, after ward I helped make dinner and we had some missionaries come over for dinner and they gave us a short message, then savanna dad ect came for dessert and we played Catch Phrase, it was tons of fun! that's about all that happend but it was fun. On the way home we stopped maybe 4 times for Mylee, One of the times Bailee, dad, and I were playing out side of the car, it was kinda cute to see dad and her play together, when we finally stopped for lunch i was burping Mylee and she spit on the chair and it all started to roll towards my butt it was funny and then she spit allllll over my lap ewwwwwwww. lukily this car ride was more entertainig.

April

April came to stay for like a month at grandpa and grandmas house. I tried to help her have fun and save her from boredom, so alot of driving happend, she came to church and young womens with me each week, some of the things we did included, Ice blocking, bridal veil falls, Oquirrh Mt Temple, Provo temple to read scriptures, Swimming at vets, Swimming at seven peaks, Ice skating twice, Night games, Scrapbooking, Going to the mall, we went to Spoon Me and she just thought the whole thing was funny and We went on a date to the Y mt with my best friend lindsay.