My Christmas Wish

The thing I wanted most for christmas was the truth, and though I knew I would mostlikely not get the truth ever or for a long time regarding elder. Well I got my christmas wish on Jan 1st. His best friend and a dear friend to me sent me a message and we taked for a while, then one day she asked if I'd like to chat in person. I was having a hard time and struggling so I planned to get together with her sometime in Jan. it turned out that Jan 1st was the day we picked. I was so excited and nervous to meet her.
When she arrived around 12:30 we talked for about 1hr in my room about her story. She said quite a bit that helped me understand why things probably happend the way they did, his personality, and what I could expect. Things were quite emotional for me even though I did not cry. After she said her version I offered that we go to spoon me but they were closed and we ended up at The Training Table as I started to tell her my story. the story didnt really go anywhere till we returned where I was most comfortable speaking about it. I asked her questions that she was able to help me with.
I wanted to share with her all my letters but didn't know if she would like to hear them or have the time. So I shared with her the frist and last sent. But most of all I wanted to share a conversation we had back in july, the one thing that made all if it so hard to handle. I was hoping I wouldnt cry when I read it but I hadnt read it in months and it hurt so much that I started crying as I read, as I looked up at her I noticed she was crying too and I don't know why but that ment so much to me, to see that she understood. After that and some closing statements she gave me a hug and left at about 5:30 I was shocked at how long we were talking. I'm so glad that we were able to meet and that she was able to help me understand and put it in the past. It was a GREAT beginning to the new year. I'm a new me.
Thanks so much for comming and helping me out and for the poem you wrote about me, it all means so much to me. :D